Monday, February 22, 2021

Life Lately

 I haven't posted here in while which really stinks because I love writing, but I haven't made the time for it. I really haven't made time for much of anything. I haven't been in the mood to do anything besides work and sleep. It's frustrating how much the mind has over the rest of my body in terms of my depression and anxiety. 

I love writing, and I wish I would do more it. It also tough because when I sit down to write with an empty screen my mind goes blank. Driving to and from work I have some of the best ideas but then when I get in front of the camera or computer screen I freeze. I have nothing to say which is COMPLETELY false. 

I have also been debating on my blog name because I want to write about so much more than fitness and wellness. I want to share my other side hustles, and I think having just my name paralyzes me to only write about that. I don't know if I am overthinking it or what. I want a place where I can come and just write about whatever is on my mind. 

This is where I hate where new blogging is. I wish old blogging would come back. It was so simpler. People would just write to write about their lives. I feel like there was so much more connection and community. I didn't' feel the stress that I feel now. I feel like now you have to have a niche and that's the only thing that you can write about. You have to have this ideal person/avatar in mind. I also feel like now it's so much salesy. Trying to get everyone to purchase something. While I am selling a product I don't want to be known for only selling. I really hope this all makes sense. 

I started a new job since all the gyms in California are closed right now. It's the best job but at least it's helping paying our bills. I was working at a few gyms but the hours just got to be so inconsistent along with the travel it didn't make sense. Also some of the places were bad environments which sucks because I was really looking forward to working at some of these places. They said all the right things but the follow through wasn't there. 

By leaving those places, I took a step back to decide if coaching was really for me. Some of the stuff said and done to me by these places really took a toll on me especially being HSP and empath. I really had to sort through what was said and if that was really a truth. I am glad to come out the other side and excited to get back to working out and helping others. I'm excited for these next couple of months. 

I was super productive during quarantine, but now that I am getting back to work things are not getting done that I want to do. I had everything planned out in my ideal day, but with work and my depression I'm not getting the work done. Then I wonder why I am not reaching my goals. Endless cycle. 

I am excited that during quarantine I got back into crocheting. I reopened my old Etsy shop, Pearls & Stitches Co. I am making some accessories like scarves, headbands, scrunchies, etc. I am also working on custom orders. I tried to knit again, but realized I don't like it as much. I am hoping that I can learn more stitches soon. I see so many cute stitches on instagram, and they look so amazing in finish products. 

I have loved taking pictures for as long as I remember, and started an IG page of all my photos. I am wanting to sell them in the future. I am also looking into getting an actaul camera in the future. If you recommend any camera, let me know. I will take all recommendations. My goal is to get one by the end of this year. 

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